Sadness

Sadness. How can I feel like this when compared to other people my bumps in the road are so small. I have friends that are going through so much more. I feel selfish being worried about myself. I have a very close friend that is dealing with the breakup of a marriage and all that goes hand in hand with it. I can imagine that it must be very hard. I have no clue really, yes I left my exlife and ex behind but that was far different. That was a life filled with pain, fear and horror, once I got past being afraid to leave the rest was easy. After I did not look back, I felt like I could finally breathe and that I was safe. Well kinda safe, although I'm still not 100% sure what safe is. So I can only imagine how gut wrenching it must be to break up with someone you must still love to some degree. It makes me sad that I can't do anything to make that better, I don't know how to make that better, no magic in my bag of healing tricks. So I offer support, my ear and shoulder, and my love, what more can I do. Then there is my best friend. His son decided to join the army without talking to him first. I can't imagine what that must feel like, what must be going through his head. What can I do there? Listen and offer comforting words that probably do not so much in the way of comfort. I am very close to being done school. I never thought about the problems, the aches and hurts that I cannot fix. The things that happen to people that I have nothing in my bags that can help in anyway. That makes me so sad. So my little problem seems so small in comparison. I have accepted that in my job I will be exposed to a lot of things that are not so nice, I have been exposed to yet another illness that seems to have possibly infected me, nothing huge that can't be fixed, it may not be pleasant but its okay. And my school stuff isn't so bad. Not seeing my kids (esp now I don't want them getting sick too) kills me, but its almost done. Its not so bad, and my issues pale in comparison to others sadness. Yet I can't seem to shake the sadness that threatens to take over and the tears that seem to fill my eyes more that I care to admit. So I wonder where all the sadness comes from and how I can force it to go away. I think about the people I love and what life brings them, I hope that they realize how much I care about them. If I could I would take their sadness and hurts away, but I can't seem to find that magic cure.