Change of pace

Wow it's been a long time since I have written in this blog. Times have been busy. So much has happened. Jordy turned 4, I turned 32 (yikes kinda creeps up on you), passed my AEMCA exam (now offically a PCP) and got a job. Figured out the boys father hasn't paid support since sometime in May, making things a little tougher than they have to be. The weather has been sickly hot and makes it tough to get out and burn off energy. My workouts here and there have taken an back burner to life, I try to do stuff at home to make up for it so it isn't so bad. Ifinally painted my room ( its only taken 2 years!!) What can I say things are moving along.

Now that most of that big stuff is done and out of the way it has left me the time to think. Sometimes this is good, sometimes not so good. I had figured that once school was over and I was working that things would make a shift for the better. In lots of ways it has however in some ways its worsened. I find I am far lonelier now than I was before. Before I never had more than a few hours here and there to myself, which I filled with studying or catching up. Now each night after the kids are in bed and weekends they are gone I find myself thinking crap what am I going to do with myself now. So I guess now I have to get used to the silence and find some thing to fill the time. I have to re learn how to chill and relax- its seems I have forgotten how to do that!