School's almost back in!
Well tomorrow my oldest goes back to school. It will be his first full day ever, Grade 1. I hope he enjoys it and that he can handle that full day ok. His attention span I hope has grown over the summer and it won't be overly difficult for him to adjust to. My youngest will be starting school too, JK, in the afternoon's. I know he will love it an I think that it will make the transition to full days (once he gets there) easier by being there in the later part of the day. It will be an adjustment for all of us I think to get used to!
I sit here thinking what am I going to do with my self when they are gone in the afternoons. Right now most of my jobs are on the weekends or the later part of the week. Some are in the am at like 5:30 am. So that makes those days easy to decide what to do- workout! My best guess is that I will have to find a second job, that or my house is going to be super clean. I'm not used to not having something big to do! There was always school or one of the boys being home 24/7. What to do now?
I know that this will be a lot easier for my mom when she has to babysit them while I am at work. The nature of the job I have right now though is that most of the events take place on weekends and on holidays. So that means a lot less time with the boys. In some ways that is good, in some ways not so good. We get a break from each other and the boys will have an outlet in learning, but if my work happens to be when its our time then we don't have much time to be together. This also means that socially I won't get a break either, not that I have anyone to be social with anyway but it just occurred to me. So its back to some hobbies that have been forgotten and time to add some new ones. So hello to knitting again and hello to starting a scrapbook for the first time ever. I will be able to continue to write the book I started over the summer, so maybe in time Sahara and Roe's adventure will at some point end.
The biggest thing I think is that the boys are growing up so fast and before I know it they will be gone. What scares me I think is that I fear I will be left with nothing but my work. Yes I know I have a long time to go yet before that happens, but in reality 6 years has gone by in the blink of an eye. My girlfriends are all married and one has a child ( a few years behind mine) but really I have no other single friends. Not that I have much time to socialize right now, but sometime in the future I will. I guess really what I'm saying is that that old fear of being completely alone has resurfaced with my boys going back to school. It will be a long time before I have to worry about that so I will enjoy things as they are and not worry so much about planning for the future. Right now the biggest thing I look forward to is the leaves turning color and the crispness of the air that signals Fall has arrived. And tomorrow school starts!
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